December 16, 2009



I should really start saving to SURVIVE! Can't help it when you feel hungry. :D

December 14, 2009



Feel like quitting so much and just go to Singapore for the Christmas!!

December 13, 2009



I miss my Mom and her cooking...

December 11, 2009



working sucks... study while you can!

December 10, 2009

racism




Just felt bad about what my sister had said. :/


Running low on cash, gotta work hard this month. :(

November 08, 2009

October 21, 2009

接受事实吧...又何必再去参考那么多?想着又想,难道真的没办法了吗?过去的就让它过去,有何必要徘徊在那痛苦的当中。放弃?不致以到那种地步。望着他们的脸孔,又让我想起悲伤的回忆。回想也不一定是一件坏事。更何况,当初在回忆里也充满了喜愉。用金钱也无法免回的回忆,仿佛在脑海中失去它的功能。应该选择那条路走呢?心里怀着怕迷失在现实生活当中的恐惧。免了吧... 还是保持着老样子过着生活?但是,却感的不甘愿。

我想,这就是人生。再怎么的努力,都会遇到一些挫折。何苦让自己那么得难受。想到家里的两个老人家,心里就像被刺伤的。世上有谁说的都是正确呢?谁能判断你是错误的?毕竟,人生并不长。努力了上半生,却得到什么回报?可是,树欲静而风不止,子育养儿亲不待。就算有多难接受,也都得给它吞了下去!尽了我的本份吧。能做的只是使他们为了我而感到骄傲。

我没什么要求,也没什么渴望得到些什么。只是,想让他们好好过着平淡的生活。

October 12, 2009

HOME



Taken from www.thestar.com.my comic strip. Reminds me of my family back in Kuching especially after she just cooked.

Just so heartwarming... :D

September 13, 2009

Hi guys, it's been weeks since I last updated. Just to brief you guys about the things that I'm doing now. Basically class started early of the August. First semester would be something that we need to adjust to. About the courses that I'm doing, not to say that it's easy, it is still considered hard. I'm hesitating on whether to do the 1+4 Program or the 2+3 Program. Both have the same amount of years that we need to study in order to get a Bachelor's degree. Either way works for me. However, as what the guy from Cartisan's has mentioned that studying more years in the States gives u a different insight or even experiences others might not gain. To get into a university/college on the 1+4 Program, nothing much to be done actually. Just that I need to study extremely hard. And I have to take SAT I and II as well, SAT II which consists of at least 2 subjects. Seriously, this may not be my thing but I might just give my best and give it a try. What to say I'm already handling 5 subjects in school currently, in which part of the courses are time-consuming. I'd better plan out my time properly or else I'm gonna get stuck in between things that I wanna do.

Talking about the 1+4 Program, I will have to maintain at least 3.5 GPA to get into the college that I've chosen. Not only that, the application process is surely something you don't want to get involved in. Lots of things that you need to submit and deadlines to meet. I will have to take my SAT either in October or November if I am to fly over to the States in the fall next year. Most of the colleges have a deadline on 15 November for Early Decision and 1 January for Regular Decision. Double shot I would say just to make sure that we really get the college we want to. After listening to what my friends and the counselors have been saying, 1+4 might just be a better choice, though I'm still being indecisive. Hopefully everything would work out fine and go accordingly. Alright, tons of assignments to be completed! 3.5GPA, if the lecturers are kind enough, I might even score higher than that. =D

August 10, 2009

Faith

A few times I’ve been trying to question myself, “Does God really exists?”

Back in the days when God or Jesus Christ had not appeared in my life, I was being asked to follow my mom to this temple thing. I would do the things she did and worshiped the same “god” she worships. She was a devoted Buddhist back then.

This morning as I was listening to the sermon by Rev. Kenneth Chin, from ACTS church, something he said triggered my mind. I went off flying back to the memory I had in my memory vault. Unlocking the vault, I saw myself for the first time, boarding on the plane to come to Kuala Lumpur or should I say Subang Jaya. I saw my heart and what I had on my mind at that exact moment. Thrilled was of course one of them. But no, not only the excitement that I had in store for the past few weeks after I received the offer letter from the government. It was something else… a sense of achievement, success and pride. Being dictated by these thoughts and feelings, I was actually being a proud person. Seriously, do I really take this offer as a blessing from God? I doubted myself.

It is this sense of achievement and success that kept me from realizing what God has set for me. A better plan or He has already done most of the job for me? I did not even hesitate whether to accept the offer or not. It’d be such a “noble” act to reject the scholarship. I saw this as an opportunity and I grabbed hold on it. Never wanting to let it slip away from my hand, I hold on to it tightly. The sermon sparked one of my nervous cells perhaps, in which it actually asked me to ponder on this question: “What am I doing here?” Well, study of course would be the main reason. But is there anything else more than that? What was preached on was the message of faith. Have I been able to keep my faith strong all the way while I am in this place? Yes and no. I wish I had come here with a heart full of God, showing the others that I’m actually a “God-fearing dude”. Every time I tried looking in the mirror, I asked myself what changes I can make during the time I am going to be here. Would God always be there for me when I need him?

I can’t deny the fact that I am thinking whether God is still out there watching over me? And I certainly won't feel shameful over such thought that I’m scared to know that the God I’ve trusted doesn’t even exist. This enigma, I must throw it aside and really set my faith right. Abraham believed in God, though he did not really receive the promise while he was still alive. But what happens after he died was he has got descendants that are as many as the stars in the sky and the sand in the beach. I want to be just like Abraham. I wish that things would be more lucid to me. I don’t want to be just a superficial guy and a hypocrite. I don’t want to do things on my own strength as it will wear me out.

I hope for more faith in You…

July 14, 2009

Sick

Alright, time to brief you guys about the weekends which I've gone through. The happy thing is I went to Penang with my fellow friends in Kuching, except Ben who is an Australian/English. Things were fantastic especially with the amazing food choices that are available. We had a stay in the YMCA thing. Not bad about the service. Trying to stop the temptation of eating more could be one of the obstacle to overcome. Thank God that I'd been determined not to stuff myself with that much of stuff. This whole month is going to be quite tensed up as there are a lot more to do. English lectures, TOEFL, SAT, etc. Basically, there will be more mock exams on the different things we have never learned before in secondary school before. It would be something interesting to venture in.

Let's talk about my housemates and roommate. They are really special people. I did not get any of the study type housemates who would lock themselves up in the room and try to finish the thick book. Some are really talented, as in the music field. One of them sing really well, the other plays the guitar and piano really well and one more plays the drum. I felt quite left out but still I can sing. One is just good in his studies. Hopefully the challenges that are about to come wouldn't bring most of us down. Will continue to do my best as the lecturers have been urging us to study really hard for the first semester. Not to say that we can relax on the 2nd semester, but still we have to put in more effort that we did before.

Oh yeah, after coming back from Penang, I had this fever for like 3 days already!!!! Felt so lifeless in class, but am still able to pick up what the teachers say. There are more to be anticipated and challenges to face. I believe once we put our faith in God, He would guide us through every road or path we take. Till then my friends... miss you guys and the food in Kuching!!

July 08, 2009

Taylors University College

Finally I've reached Subang on the 5th. Pretty much settled in much still, not as good as before. Well, first of all, let's talk about the hostel they provided. It's newly built... But, the thing is, there is no microwave oven provided, the fridge is spoilt, no washing machine and small rooms that are available. Plus, the distance from the hostel to the campus is like 30-40 minutes walking distance. Taking a cab would cost around RM7-8 for one way. It's far not only from the campus but also from the KTM station and bus station. The only option we have is to take a bus or either a cab right outside the hostel. And, the bus comes at around 6.15am!! Which is extremely early and mostly packed with students from Taylor's as well. Not to mention the bus back is also the same! They offer 2 rounds of bus normally. They can squeeze the whole bus with multitudes of people. No kidding here, seriously... whole bus has no more space left. Until the extent that you have to stand on your feet which makes you tired especially during raining day when the traffic is seriously congested.

Let's hope that things will change for the better when school officially starts. Oh by the way, we're still having our induction program until the 5th August. Our orientation would be on the 6th while the class starts on the 10th. Forgot to mention that there is no TV!!! NO TV and no Wi-Fi!! Oh man... but they will only install it on the 15th which will be shared by so many units in the apartment. Let's pray for the connection that it will be fast. Am adapting well... hopefully can do better in studies. As for either Ivy Leagues or Competitive Universities application... I think i will only target for those which I'm capable of. Don't want to stress myself out that much. And will be going to Penang with Angela, Ben, Isaacn and Audrey or Amanda on this Saturday 3.00am. That's all. Bye

June 21, 2009

Father

Flipping my minds over the memories that are stored in my brain, and venturing through the things I’ve been through. Never had I talk to my dad in a family way or heart to heart talk. Things weren’t going that well when I was young. My impression on my dad was, he’s someone fierce, he would never understand what I’m going through, he’s just someone selfish who thinks for himself and most importantly is he didn’t treat my mom that well. Ever since then, my relationship with my dad has never, literally, never got any closer. Talking about my dad, he had been my primary school form teacher for 3 years. As for the three years he’s being my form teacher, it’s not something to be proud of for what I have in mind.

And the thing is, there was no special treatment from my dad although he’s the one marking my test paper in primary school. Matters got worse when I was in secondary school. You see, my dad and my mom aren’t so close to each other. I used to put the blame on my dad and hated him. I had this kind of mindset that everything that went wrong in the family must be dad. I would shout back at him, and showing no respect at all when we had a fight. I hardly talk to my dad and would reluctantly go out to eat with him or hanging out like father and son would do. I don’t have a perfect dad.

Today, on Father’s day eve, we went out for dinner. At first, I felt quite “sien” just to sit around and eat. And as we were eating, we began to share the things that we wouldn’t have thought of sharing. We talked about the past, the relationship of my mom and dad and lots of things. Just right until the time when we had our cake, one of my sister came out with an idea of saying something grateful as an appreciation towards my dad. When it was my dad’s turn, one thing he said that touched and melted our heart so much was, “No matter what happened between us, you all are still my beloved children.” And when he was saying this, tears began to shed from his eyes. I have never seen my dad crying, what more to say that he’s an old tough guy. Well actually this was the second time but still quite shocking to us. I felt tears in my eyes too, though I didn’t let it out.

He’s my dad and he’s awesome. He worked very hard just to see the 8 of us grew up. Imagine the number of kids that he had to look after? Though he had never given us expensive presents or pamper us with delicious and tempting sweets when we were young, he gave us his love that even we ourselves didn’t notice. He respects the choices that we make and hardly goes against them. My dad is 61 years old now. He might be old but he’s still working hard to earn a living and support the family. He's a teacher, a "mechanic", a "plumber", a "farmer" and was a fisherman in our family. How amazing that he knows how to fish, plant, teach and fix the pipes and cars. These things just zap my mind and make me realize how my dad has been for the whole time. It’s just us not realizing how dad has been sacrificing himself.

He may not be the perfect father, but he’s a great dad to me. And I’m proud to be his son. The most important thing is, he loves us and cares for us and will always do. Sorry dad for being such a bad son for all the while. And I would like to wish you and dads out there, a happy Father’s day!

June 04, 2009

04 June 2009

First and foremost, would like to congratulate those who got the offer letter from JPA like Choo Lee Lee who is apparently going to the same place as I am. Well, I'll be doing my Pre-U course in Taylor's College with the American Degree Transfer Program. Time flies and after 7 months of holiday without books, I finally have the excuse to put a full stop to it. Throughout the whole month, might be quite busy dealing with the application forms and etc.

I'll be given the chance to further my degree in the US if I do well in my pre-u course. I doubt that it'd be easy. Anyways, for those who didn't receive the scholarship, I bet God has a greater plan for you guys! Keep on striving the best for Him. Thank God that He gave me such a chance. =)

May 21, 2009

Aaron - 18 and legal



Happy Birthday Aaron! It's great having such a good friend around. Hope you future that lies ahead shall shine brightly.

May 18, 2009

Embarking

Just about to leave Kuching for Johor Bahru, I received the good news of being offered a JPA scholarship. The course that was offered is Sastera Ikhtisas. Most of you must have been confused by the word “Sastera” that makes it sound like literature when it’s been directly translated. Well, in this context, the whole course is something like business. My sister is doing it, so I’m pretty sure it’d be something fun and interesting. Good news never stops flowing in. My third sister just got married last week. I’m happy that she’s finally settling down. Another sister of mine just got married in January, which means there were 2 weddings this year. It is too bad for my sixth sister who’s currently doing her studies in Canada that can’t make it for both the weddings.

There wasn’t much to say about the whole trip, there were tons of shopping malls in Johor Bahru as it is near to the coast of Singapore with just a distance of a bridge. My lovely third sister took good care of us from the matters of accommodation, food and entertainment. Don’t know when will be my next chance to treat her in such a way. After spending 6 days in Johor Bahru, I went to visit my second sister who’s settling in Malacca. Nice food and not to forget the cendol that I’ve tried in Jonker Street. There was nothing much in Malacca though, quite a boring town. I’ve been blessed with so many different things. Not as in just the JPA scholarship, but also having a lot of great sisters that really care for me. I must say that I have definitely being pampered by them.

Alright, to Tonyong, sorry that I can’t make it for the farewell party and couldn’t give you anything when u left for Australia. The only thing I can do is keep praying for you and hope that you will study hard in Brisbane with you brother there. Let me know what you’re gonna send over to us eh. Not just a postcard?? Sure hope not. Have fun and study hard ya. My first semester of school would most probably starts on the end of June or the early July. Pray that everything would be fine and well-prepared.
PS: Pictures will be uploaded shortly. Please be patient as I don’t have the patience to wait for the pictures to be uploaded. =)

April 21, 2009

Tagged by Soon-to-be-in-Brisbane-Tonyong

Upload your fave picture and answer the question below.


Why did you choose the photo?
- I love the smile!

When was the last time you ate pizza?
- In Pastor Cheli's house last Thursday, which I did not manage to eat 2! D;

The last song you've listen too?
- Clinging to the Cross

What are you doing beside answering this tag?
- Chatting in MSN

Besides your own name, how do you like people to call you?
- Handsome full! hahaha! i think names like Pui Pui is rather cool for someone!

Tag 6 perso, the following questions are related to them.
1) CHONG LEE HUI
2) John Sim
3) Jun Wei
4) -
5) -
6) Barnabas?

Who is number 1?
- My beloved pretty, cute and spare-tyred sister. hehe

No.3 has a relationship with?
- I think it's "somebody"... lol

Say something about number 5.
- no number 5 in my list. xD

How about number 4?
- ---

Who is number 2?
- A DUDE

Say something to number 6.
- Stop laughing for one day pls.... D:

April 07, 2009

hope

It got us thinking, when things are not going according to our will. “What is wrong?”, the thought that flooded our mind. There must be a reason, why things turn out to be that way. Perhaps, it’s not the time or the right place. But don’t worry my friends, chances will appear.
The only thing you need to do by then is to grab hold of them. Grasp it tight in your hand, never let it go. Believe you can do it, not by your own strength. But with the wisdom of God, strive ahead and you shall find relief. Have faith in the things you do, putting aside our selfishness. Consider others beside you; let’s be grateful though things are upside down.

March 15, 2009

Perfection? Nah...



Alright, there goes my update. About my result. Things do not necessarily have to be perfect all the time. I thank God for giving me such results. Could only say that I myself have taken things for granted most of the times... Not to show off or what. Just want to share with you guys. =P

*Busy applying for scholarship*

February 04, 2009

说到今年的新年,还真是有点不同。已经很久没有好好过个年了。想尝试用用华文来写部落格,毕竟自己是个华人嘛。也是时候用我老爸以他的血汗教出来的华文。当然中学也有学过咯。最近会比较忙些,在上着教会的课程。学学东西,好过在家游手好闲的。学了很多东西,就看自己会不会运用罢了。

对了... 提到过年,令我吃惊的是,家里尽然很平静!出乎意料,吓倒了呀。嘻嘻,很感谢也很满意... 朋友到我家来拜年,椅子还没坐烧就走人。不过也没关系,至少还有这个诚意来到我家。也替我老姐感到高兴,因为她升值了。新加坡现在在裁员,没想到还能生存而且薪水也升啊。 好想赶快拿到成绩然后快点的深造,然后赚钱!哈哈哈....闷死了古晋!! 恨不得想快点离开。

Nana!! 不想去有雪的地方。哈哈,会冻死人的... 非拿到奖学金不可。好了吧,就到此为止。拜拜

January 11, 2009

Scary flood

It's been raining for days... Yes, the temperature might be something cool.. but definitely not something cool to dry your shirts... imagine whole week's been raining, I'll have no shirts to change later.

Later Tonyong mentioned her cats were almost drowned! How irresponsible... hehehe.. she should have just put the cats inside her house. And guess what, one of the kitten actually drowned and died in her fish pond. Yucks... tsk tsk tsk.. i know this is kinda out of topic. hehe..




waiting for the next "sampan" to pick them up..haha


that's the "sampan" i'm talking about!!

It's on the ROAD! Not on a river.. incredible..



Remember the cartoon "The Wild Thornberry"? It looks like the caravan that can change into a boat...



It got stuck...



and it was freed...

Some good Samaritans were helping him.... It's the worst flood I've been through. Cool to gain an experience too. Cool night to sleep on the bed too now.. Night.